Saturday, October 29, 2005
Since I am feeling so sian now and no one bothers to entertain me, I shall make everyone suffer with me. I don't care! Who ask you people to be so indifferent ): Now, let's reminisce our sec school moments...
Poly isn't supposed to be that boring for me. It is only so because my oh-so-interesting sch school moments put it to shame. Ya lah, curse me all you want, I cannot hear!! q:
I missed Kranji...
I missed the days when I was in sec school.. I can call "AH MIAO!" and then sinking my fangs into Cheryl's shoulders and grabbed her hand and stick to her like a leech to wherever she goes. I DID THIS EVERY FREAKING SINGLE DAY. (except when I pon school)
I missed the days when Subhan piggybacked me around in school and Atiqi sharing with me his breakfast. And Zul had to eat the 'pi' (crust) of the sandwich because I don't like it while I ate the fillings and fluffy white portions.
I missed the days when I had a heated argument with... Shiiit!! I forgot his name!! Oh erm, VIMEL!! And I whacked him with the broom followed by delivering a punch from my little fist. Not forgetting to lock him out of the classroom.
I missed seeing Huijin's new collectibles of whatever-she-can-buy-with-bling bling every other day.
I missed the days when me, Cheryl and Huijin gushed over Mengzhe when 5566's featured in TNP.
And how we fling Maths TYS into Wee Huat's face when he tried to crumple that precious page of ours.
I missed the History lessons with Ms Cherie Ong and her "YO YO YO! You look like you want to volunteer your answers!" And of course Ms Yap's "Waaaah laoooooooooo ehh..... So easy!!! You tell me HOW TO FAIL GEOG?!?!?!"
I missed the days when I walked all the way to 4E to find Huilin.
I missed the days when Joan would always crack me up with her silly jokes and expressive expression.
I even missed the days when Wee Huat pinched me to wake me up when I was dozing off in class.
And Sean laughing at my exasperation and threatening to throw me out of the window when I failed to find my that time newly acquired very-cute-and-scented highlighter in which I insist he had hidden it. (cos he seemed very amazed by the smell)
I missed the fruit stall uncle who happens to be Mummy's ex classmate's husband. And stall no.5 auntie who hid all the nuggets and sell it secretly cos' our stupid school forbid her to sell. Also stall no. 8 uncle whom I always pester him to give me the tender meat when I buy chicken rice. And he gave me all the parson nose meat cos' he said that part is the most tender )):
Of course, I missed the times nearing O' Levels when I painstakingly walked to school everyday with Huilin because I wanna see Hu Xihong every morning. But now, I will flick that idea off like a pi sai upon how I used to think that he is cute. BLEEEEEEEHHHH. I will vomit my lungs out now k. Ok lah, I promise to friend him if he could be less lecherous.
I missed the days when I go to 4E to find Huilin for recess and ended up waiting for her chinese lesson to end because 'Kang Kang' is so longwinded.
I missed the days when I camouflaged myself into the 4E people after recess because I wanna spend extra time with Kailing. She also very longwinded one lah.
I missed the days when I wait for Huilin after school where we will go to Lot 1 with a gang of people for lunch.
I missed the days when we took the bus/MRT home after lunch.
I missed the days when we walked out of the MRT station to the carpark where cars threaten to knock me down, everytime, on our way home. And we will always say " Ming tian jian!!" in unison before departing.
And of course I missed bball trainings! When me, Liyi and Yenle unfortunately turned up promptly on the same day which Coach will always slap her forehead until she manage to immitate a luo han successfully because she thought we always play play during training. Just because we were more "active" =)
I missed bball trainings when somebody do stupid things and made Shubin laugh like a asthmatic idiot and rolling over the bball court, while we laugh at her.
I missed bball trainings when someone's birthday falls on the same day and we would able to have cream war.
I missed the days when a soccer ball rolled from the field to our territory and I would fight to be the one to kick it back, and ended up with the ball rolling just two metres away from my feet.
I missed the times during our 2004 tournaments which we all tie each other's hair in the bus cos' we wanted to have the same hairstyle.
I missed the amazed looks from the other spectators when all the Kss B'girls walked into the sports hall eating bananas because we haven't eaten for our early morning match.
I missed the times when me and Shubin do somersaults and rolling "little indians" in the sports hall because we got one and half hour for warm up. Then I'll get sick of it and irritate everyone by video-camming their tickle-my-tummy HAHAHA stances for foul throws.
I missed the times when we fought so hard on court and yet we were so happy and went celebrating in school when we actually lost.
I missed the times when I sprained my foot and gotten sandflies bites at the same time and I can take the heavily guarded lift in school!
I even missed the times when I feigned sick because I wanted to sleep. And said I'm fine because I don't want to sleep in the smelly sick bay with the weird indian auntie. (it's horrible because she's weird, not indian)
I missed my sec school life so much that I'm painstakingly writing them down because I'm afraid that I might forget what I missed.
HAHAHAHAHA. I know you are reminiscing your sec school life now. Don't cry huh. I finished reminiscing mine liao. Now I'm going to watch reruns of the Twin Dragons, "Woman-I-am-the-biggest" and E nan zhai ji dian.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 6:49 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
I think I should stop blogging. Sometimes it feels like I'm talking to the empty air, nobody's reading. The reason why I kept the blog was because I wanted to update with my friends the things that are happening around me. But sometimes I am too lazy to update. Either or that, there was really nothing particular going on.
I don't know lah. I also reckon that the constant entries of my everyday's life is just BORING. It's is pointless for me to do so. It's just not my style.
Anyway, my bio clock is back to normal!! =D Slept at around 2 yesterday and I actually waked up at 9 just now! Don't think I'm going back to sleep cos I wanna watch tv later.. Kinda looking forward to school. I had enough off rotting my ass off at home. I want a normal routine or I may just break down anytime. Had a few false alarms sometime ago. Had enough.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 2:52 AM
Sunday, October 23, 2005
I think I am stupid.
I got myself into another cycle of depression again.
I deliberately play depressing songs again and again until I couldn't stand it anymore and break down.
My heart felt so heavy with melancholy. Stifling it was. Yet my mind was blank I wasn't thinking of anything. I just felt the surge of sorrow in me.
会不会 有时候
就在一瞬间 心被一股莫名的伤心压抑
直到感到窒息
身上的每一个细胞都充满了忧郁元素
随时都会爆发
却又被不自觉存在的自卫能力阻挡
很想释放的感觉被阻碍
而也一再回弹伤害自己
遍体鳞伤
很无奈 很无助
突然很想放下所拥有的一切
到一个无人角落 好好的疗伤
只有星光的闪烁
一点一点的
和自己分享受伤
我的理想乐园
不见天光
无尽黑暗是我专属的保护罩
不奢望 不祈求
只渴望心中留一片宁静
ps: nah, i didn't cry at all.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 8:08 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
I finally got back my camera from my sis! Now you all have the priviledge to see photos taken during my er jie's ROM!! *throws confetti around*
Anyway, I'll do it tomorrow ok? Really tired now. And by the way, I've already recovered from my diarrhea!! There'll be 3 post coming up all with pictures, I promised. If I remember to do so anyway.. (:
I suddenly have cravings for peanut tang yuans.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 7:06 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
I woke up with a excruciating pain in my tummy, totally unbearable. Like what i would do normally when I had a stomachache, I rolled on my bed. Pressed my tummy.... and roll some more.
Buah tahan arh!!
I felt like my intestines were in tangles and I can feel my womb contracting literally. Then I went to the living room and rolled on the sofa. Poor me, why isn't anybody at home when I am so sick? The pain was too much for me to bear and I went bonkers. Went back to my bed and ROLL again. WHAT ELSE TO DO WHEN YOU STOMACHACHE?! ROLL AND PRAY FOR IT TO STOP WHAT!!
Anyway, I figured a little and went to the toilet. Then I shat. CHEY! That was why I was having the stomachache. Diarrhea. I can't explain why is it that the diarrhea occured the first thing I woke up in the afternoon. I haven't even brush my teeth, let alone eat? I felt so screwed that I went back to sleep again. After that I woke up at around 7, had a shower and shat again -_________-" Can't stop shitting.
Mummy came home with dinner. I had a feeling that I might shit again after having my dinner. But who cares, I was hungry after all the shit!!!! I watch the 10pm show on scv and in the midst of the show as I reckon, that tugging was back and howled at me to do my business.
Around 2 hours before mummy came out of her room, I shat again.
WHEN WILL ALL THE SHIT STOP?!?!?! I am feeling so terrible now.. ):
A shitty entry for today, it shall be.
"Faaaaaahed" @ 7:14 PM
Monday, October 17, 2005
don't you hate to deny these results, sometimes? now I am getting really confused. i don't know it myself! it's not that I want to deny 'unspeakable' results, it's just something i can't believe.
.:Shizoid:.
~Summary~
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid
relationships and do not show much emotion.
Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to
be alone and do not secretly wish for
popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require
little social contact. Their social skills are
often weak and they do not show a need for
attention or acceptance. They are perceived by
others as humorless and distant and often are
termed "loners."
~Symptoms~
-Weak interpersonal skills
-Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
-"Loner" mentality; avoidance of social
situations
-Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
-Low sexual desire
-Unresponsive to praise or criticism
.:What's Your Personailty Disorder?:. {Beautiful Dark Pics}
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your a wannabe , you try to hard to fit in. You
need to be yourself a little more. then people
will respect you a little more.
What school girl are you??? (with cool pics)
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huh. I am not being myself?
Dominant Personality: Innocence
Good Traits: You're bubbly and bright. You
ask a lot of questions, and can make anyone
smile.
Bad Traits: You're too naive. People will
step all over you.
You're Most Like: Calm. You're laid back,
and don't get much accomplished. But you have
more energy than someone who's calm.
You Need More: Fear. You run into dangerous
situations without a care, and find yourself
trapped. Be aware, and listen to your instinct.
What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results)
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yeah man, I'm a floormat??
your a mermaid! your very calm and cheery, and like
to keep to yourself. you adore water, and are
probably a decent swimmer. you don't like to be
confused, either, and like being in control.
what would you be in a fantasy world? (amazing pics!)
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okay. finally something more appealing q:
"Faaaaaahed" @ 6:53 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I WANT THE MELODY BOOK CLIP FROM MCDONALD'S!!
can anybody get for me (cos i dont eat mcdonald's)?? heehee ~ :P
"Faaaaaahed" @ 6:30 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005
BORED.
had pt lunch at swensen's on thur. totally orgasmic! oh my god, i had grilled fish sambal and that was seriously good! it's sort of like a high class 'peng hir'. hahaha. really nice! mr lau treat us to swensen's zhen dian zhi bao too--- EARTHQUAKE!!!
felt earth trembling when this appeared in front of me q:
faaaaaaaaaaaah. nearly fainted on the spot.anyway, we had the following flavours:
-sticky chewy chocolate
-cookies and creme
-rum and rasin
-lime sherbet
-mint
-strawberry
-yam
and..........i forgot. something chocolatey as well ((: and of course whipped cream and cherries and erm, dry ice.
while you might be wondering who was the brilliant one who chose all these yummy-licious flavours, ahem, it can only be yours truly who is this tasteful =D
*hit by unknown object from afar.*
-sticky chewy chocolate
-cookies and creme
-rum and rasin
-lime sherbet
-mint
-strawberry
-yam
and..........i forgot. something chocolatey as well ((: and of course whipped cream and cherries and erm, dry ice.
while you might be wondering who was the brilliant one who chose all these yummy-licious flavours, ahem, it can only be yours truly who is this tasteful =D
*hit by unknown object from afar.*
anyway, i was feeling quite hippy these few days. i am eating normally, drinking less water maybe. i am wasting my time away happily while waiting for the hospital to call me about the details the operation. FASTER CALL ME LA!! I AM FREAKING SIAN AT HOME CAN. *pouts* the only meaningful thing i did recently was to go to joel's house yesterday to celebrate his birthday. i felt kinda weird initially, as i wasn't exactly that close to joel and gang. as in, we dont hang out together. anyway, who ask me to live opposite him, such an easy target for gatherings when they're bored or need someone to bully )): the party was not bad. you know as usual, food, alcohol, music, drums, lame jokes, stupid jokes, corny jokes, horny jokes... OOPS. the rest went off to catch their last train and buses while joel, bryan and me stayed on. we talked about loads of things, and the content kinda shock me. relationships, people, gossips, premarital sex. haha.i felt kinda surprised as i never thought that we would actually get down to such sensible topics.
by the way joel, dont ever buy bacardi grapefruit again. it tasted like f&n grape.
oh ya, i wanna share something with you! something that keeps me happy all day! *squeals bimbotically*
nicely manicured ((:
c'mon. have a closer look, don't be shy! =Dplease kindly forgo the fact i had fat wrinkled fingers. look at the nails! i finally had nice manicure after so many failure attempts. i shall now annouce to world loudly, I HAVE NICE NAILS!! yippeeyippeeyayayayayayayyayayya ~~~
that was just acrylic nails bought from sasa. pasted by myself that's why it's called DIY! you think i really so smart meh? q:
that was just acrylic nails bought from sasa. pasted by myself that's why it's called DIY! you think i really so smart meh? q:
"Faaaaaahed" @ 8:09 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
i was freaking hungry.
i just ate a banana and now i am freaking full.
what the hell is wrong with my body? my body clock is screwed. look at the time i am blogging! it's 6.58am now!my stomach is like....... i dont know how to put it. i can eat like a quarter plate of rice and i feel like vomiting. then after 3 hours i will be hungry again, but i wont be able to eat anything much.
SIAN....... -______-"
why like that???
"Faaaaaahed" @ 10:00 PM